A rare time 2020 and beyond

A rare time to renew our commitment to ourselves and this planet. Imagine what you would offer and be willing to receive knowing the past no longer exists.
The hurts you have cradled and nurtured, gone.
The reason to feel like an outsider, gone.
Resentments and wounding gone.

Who would you be?
How would you live from this day forward – knowing nothing you imagined or held dear needed to be carried with you.


what are the values and valuables you would want to begin to rearrange empty?

Sometimes we think our pain and suffering has value and it gives us a voice. What if all of that got swept away and you had to find a new way to speak in the world?

Starting over.

What would you say? Who would you be?
What would you be grateful for?

Now is that time.
Saturn separates us from excess, things we have abused or over used in some fashion. Where we have been out of balance in our dealings with time and karma.

While Pluto helps put all that to death. Dismemberment takes away everything we have put in place to stop us from remembering who we are. A numbness bred of our story and the reason why we cannot or will not go back to the beginning.

Who are you really?

Who do you want to be when all you have is a tiny traveling suitcase of remembrance?

April 2019 Insights.

New month. New identity.

Always a 4 month by the Gregorian calendar, April ignites within us the desire to feed our intentions through sowing seeds of shift.

Growth beckons, calling us to give ideas roots by fostering their form.

We ponder the sweet nectar of spring, wanting to infuse that scent into our daily lives. Curiously exploring whether the methods and mindset of what was, is still good enough to keep, or is a dismantling and rebirth in order now?

According to the numbers, flux is here.

2+0+1+9 gives us a12 universal year, which adds up to a 3(1+2) root number. This April is a 16(12+4) month which becomes a 7(1+6) in universal digitry.

Each of the three numeric categories is represented this month as well, the emotional in the 3, material in the 4 and mental in the 7. Giving us the capacity to see things we have been blind to, expanding our ability to nurture ourselves into living a new kind of wisdom.

Also 3+4 = 7.

Every piece of this pattern adds up to a highly spiritual combination that activates and grounds a cosmic confluence within us. Our human form invites more light, this is geometric resonance at work. A triangular based pyramid (a tetrahedron) consists of 4 three sided shapes on top of a square. Which gives us 4 x 3 equaling 12 (like our universal year) plus the additional 4 for the square base which adds up to 16 (our universal month) which reduces to 7.


The universe always finds a way to communicate with us, if we are willing to listen. It is said the Pyramids of Egypt were highly reflective, their form a reference to the rays of the sun, designed to bring more light and higher consciousness to earth, by grounding the base with great support tapering from a pointed top, so energy can flow in easily and go down gradually.

As the numeric code for the month reveals, we are poised to receive more light with our mental, emotional and spiritual channels opening up in new ways.

3 is the overall theme for the year so it colors every month, with love, laughter social and creative glee activating (e)-motion. We are learning to feel what we feel in the moment, so we can recognize (make real) and release what we no longer need. Feeling our feelings such as sadness, happiness, delight or grief is our superpower as humans.

Our feelings are incredible barometers for living fully in the body our souls are housed in.

No need to hang on to feelings by storing them in our bodies or ignoring them. Through our sensational responses?—?vibrational effects of e- motion we get to embody life, because in spirit form we lack the human container that creates a visceral response.

Photo by Felix Mittermeier on Unsplash

16 is a number of cosmic shift. Electric, unexpected wildness awakens our inner senses, making the invisible visible. Turning life as we have assumed it, upside down, bringing flashes of inspiration and a quickening awareness. We experience moments of being in wholeness with our souls, allowing for incremental waves of change in our world view, as if siphoned through a pyramid. Everything on the external plane that is out of alignment, including beliefs and structures could collapse, since 16 enjoys overthrowing the status quo. It is a powerful partner to Uranus who is moving ether into earth while in Taurus for the next 7 years.

Disruptions make way for change.

There are many storms brewing and spewing in this fast, slow pace swirl. We see the past and our habitual chosen responses are illuminated, if we are paying attention, providing us an opportunity to evolve. 7 invites research, reflection and retreat from the old ways of thinking. It is imperative to let your intuition guide your journey, as you pause to go within or out in nature.

Everywhere there are openings to break free from traditional lifestyles, rote doing, that has depended on our looking backwards with shame or blame.

Life is liquifying! Take a risk and try something new.

The quickening of rebellion is in our spirits, making way for more heartfelt choices. We are weary of pretence and willing to walk away from the convenience of staying silent. The internal music of spirit calls us, every note a key to expressing innate truth and generosity, so we can move from feeling put upon to embracing our natural vibrancy.

Be gentle with you, it is ok to say no and not have to explain why, to change your mind and move away from people who cannot understand why you are different. Set your own boundaries in a world that has used barriers to lock us in.

Distraction can never bring satisfaction.

Stop giving energy to things you have no interest in, and advice to people who don’t share your beliefs.

FOCUS on the now and what needs your attention.

Develop your connection to your intuition, discover new roles.

Who are you underneath the many layers of societal constructs?

Number 4 helps us to materialize what is in our mind and hearts by developing structure. Linking us to the earth as a living energy, bringing with it a practical and disciplined approach to building foundations.

April is a dynamic month of being social and in silence, digging into what lies beneath the why and what, inviting new opportunities in lifestyle and work. We get to disengage with over analysis, foster our enthusiasm for learning and leadership, in brand new ways, individually and in community.

There is a reason April 1st is called April Fools – being “foolish” frees us from needing to fit in to look perfect. That rigidity of denying a natural sense of joy holds us hostage on so many levels. Failing is not wrong, it is just a more electric way forward. We can never know everything and yet through connection and commitment we can experience the impossible.

Dance in the divine waters of universal love and light because that will open your heart and improves your communication to your mind, body and spirit.

Illumination for March 2019

3 represents the triad of creation, and is always the March calendar number that brings in the equinox of spring/autumn. This year that 3 intensifies the 2019 universal year, also a 3(1+2)(2+0+1+9). There is a bolder desire for self expression, spiritual truth and dynamic exploration rippling out, expanding our willingness to learn by doing.

The cosmic energies, climate shifts and political landscape pull us towards revolutionary advancement, as our psychic senses blossom.

Social norms and rigid rules are in flux, so we can experience everything, even challenges, through the fabric of love, with a playful, lighthearted, and sacred willingness. As things collapse and collide, our discernment grows and our core values are exposed, stirring up an urgency within to renounce unnecessary restrictions.

Seek your own edge, allowing the boundaries of your freedom to take shape. Music, art and innovation beckon, imploding your sense of what is possible. While shocking and ugly could rise to the surface and dislodge what once seemed permanent, it will also make space to build a kinder and more integrated support system for all of us.

Spiritual alchemy is the moniker of March’s Universal number, which adds up to a 15(2+0+1+9+15)). Our inner healer comes forward to transform our relationship between our body and soul, our beliefs and attitudes. Now is the time to clean house and focus on how we can be of service in a more connected and grounded way. This purifying combination of compassion and clarity, allows us to release stuck energy and relinquish any vestiges of a martyr mindset.

In resetting the balance between service and servitude, our ability to receive more of what we desire (love, abundance, energy etc) grows.

6(1+5) is the root universal number of March, resembling a pregnant woman, nurturing the expectant life forming within Take this as a sign to tune in and slow down to listen. Treat your body as an intelligent being and nourish it joyfully as an equal partner in fathoming the mysteries of life.

Be ready to explore the limits in your intimate relationships, both sexual and platonic. Get curious about what you value in those you love, and honor these qualities. Adapt your work mindset to one more in line with a calling and less of a convenience. Focus on doing what you love with love, loving what you are doing and laugh at your weaknesses to heal the ‘should’ factor.

The importance of home, honesty and generosity are all qualities of the 6, which liberates us from hierarchical patterns based on fear and lack. Expect to take greater responsibility for your own actions and desires and be willing to hold those who cross the line accountable. Finances could be impacted individually and globally as we enter a new economy.

Seek the beauty in every moment to develop a greater trust in your intuition and the spiritual to harness the healing powers available to us now.

Chiron (cosmic medicine) is now in Aries, which is the fire driven first house of self realization, and new beginnings, till 2027, awakening our inner healer. As our unconscious patterns surface into our conscious mind, we have an opportunity to recognize and dissolve old programming, permanently changing our view about who we are.

Take time to rest, integrate and discover what is true for you. Delving into the creative can bring out more awareness and a greater connection to what matters to you. Numbers 3 and 6 center around love and self expression, so be sure to communicate your feelings and thus hasten the alchemic transformation of articulating your sense of self.

Speak your thoughts aloud in some form, even if it is in nature, or to the walls, giving life to what has been suppressed. Let music and art move you beyond what you have said into new discoveries. This is a dynamic month to break free of repetitive recycled stories of blame and shame. Shake it off by moving to the muse.

Some key highlights of March.

Mercury (mind messenger) turns retrograde on March 5th at 29 degrees and begins the retrograde season for 2019.

Inviting balance, bridging the spiritual and material world, demanding trust. You take a journey beneath deep waters to the hidden, that seeks the light of day and your compassion. The last degree of Pisces is the final degree of the zodiac too, which signifies a major ending as you let go of your old identity.

This purge activates a leap of faith in the house of delusion and imagination. Pay attention to your thoughts and self talk to ensure you are following what is true and not caught up in an illusion of how you want it to be. For example putting people on pedestals, fooling yourself about fame or denying the work that is involved in becoming more realized as you. See everything as it is, be willing to do what it takes and love it anyway. Be prepared for flashes of insight and unexpected shifts as Mercury goes direct on March 27th.

Uranus (innovation and surprise) moves into Taurus on the 6th of March, at 0 zero degrees, heralding a major in flow of divine essence in to this earthly house, just hours before the new moon, and shortly after Mercury retrogrades. An intense electric bolt will jolt the 2nd house of Taurus, ruled by Venus (values and self worth/ monetary systems) to shake us awake, as our planet meets the cosmos.

Sleeping giants will shift as Uranus, in Taurus till 2026, tears down old structures to rebuild foundations with pioneering audacity and focus.

An innovative, mystical yet practical period births, where the sacred forges the impossible.

Through it all, come back to what is true for you, even as each outer layer is revealed, tested and discarded or integrated. Remember you are in charge of your sense of self, so the better you know yourself, the clearer your connection, the easier the shift.

The way forward may be challenging, as resistance and persistence collide and contract, pushing us all further down this evolutionary path.

New moon in Pisces at 15 degrees on the 6th (tripling the 6 energy of the month) is the 6th of 7 new moons at 15 degrees rebalancing our planetary growth. This is an extraordinary catalyst to uncover our core essence on every level in every sentient being.

Stay curious and open to learning, knowing this is all a grand adventure.

What we have depended upon is being upended and rearranged, so expect to feel all the feels.

Pick your way through, choosing your path with eyes wide open.

Full moon in Libra at 0 degrees on the 21st (UTC) happens just under 3 hours after the spring equinox, which acknowledges the changing light of the season. The closest full spring moon to the equinox since March 20, 2000, and we won’t have another this close for 11 years.

This equinox full moon carries another dose of intense Uranian energies, that comes with a call of freedom. Things could get ugly, alerting us to the reality of what is needed now. A good time to speak from your heart, letting love guide the tone, knowing you can do this. Collaboration, honesty, compassion and balance ease the way as Libra (scale) also ruled by Venus, brings a sense of tranquility and hope in. The final 0 degree (last of 6 full moons in a row) expels a shower of love over us all.

Keep peeling back the layers to increase your sense of who you are to better serve your community and the world.

The Shape of Freedom

Free falling into autonomy, touching texture and boundary, as I journey inward to meet this riddle, whose substance has long captivated and eluded me. What is the shape of Freedom?

Silence is my entry point, eyes coated in wonder, heart beating so loudly I hear the machine like hum filling my ears, silencing my doubts.

Here I am, on a silent retreat, surrounded by many, guided by Michael Beckwith who urges us to ‘Glow with God’  as we follow our breath, releasing the need to engage with our thoughts.

My first silent retreat in the company of others and the room is filled with a pulsating energy that nourishes us as we go deeper into silence.  I feel safe here, safe enough to surrender my mind traps at the door.

It is not possible to check my email, or jump up to distractedly tidy something before I get to meditation.  Right now, there is only quiet, making it easy, even a relief to just focus on my breath. No need to impress anyone with my wit nor beg for approval, so I begin seeking the edges of freedom.

Being with people in silence, all focused on their breathing is incredibly peaceful, and liberating. Nothing to do but follow my breath.  Yes, this feels spacious.

We are in the high desert where nature rules, surrounded by sentient beings whose only awareness is freedom. A bird completely at ease, soaring with the wind, resting atop the tallest tree. Living her freedom of expression, mostly in silent joy.

I feel the shape of freedom deepen within me as I listen to my breathing in the sound of silence.  

Let silence take you to the core of life.    – Rumi.

My breath creates bubbles of light within my body, charging my cells, changing me.  I sit in this sound of stillness.

Is this freedom?     

Surrendering beyond the unexpected noises of silence, the clutter of thought and need to know. Flying beyond words. Following the sound of my breath in search of what lies beyond, even as I hear the words-  ‘Where is your attention?’   

I can bifocate, even as the spoken words drop in, I feel my cells expanding with more light and see the visual messages I am being shown, as I follow my breath.  In my mind’s eye, I see endless people, out in the desert and beyond, their backs to me, arms raised and open. Each one in their own circle of light. Complete within themselves, whole, grounded, holy, a connector, plugged into source, radiating out love in strands that look like christmas lights.  All at once an exquisite beauty blooms in my heart, melting my resistance.   Opening me to letting go.

Clear crystals grow inside my body filling me with more light. I am light, I am connected to Source. There are no words just feelings.  My senses are alert, dialled in.  Yes, this feels liberating, open, Divine.   

What is the shape of freedom?   I taste into what I am experiencing.

I see freedom from my limitations – there is enough energy to light the world.  Freedom from my sense of lack, clearly there is more than enough resources for everyone.  Freedom from hiding my weird, wild self because I am supposed to fit in a box of should’s. Freedom from my need to separate myself from others and disconnect myself from this world because that darkness that disguises love, is dissolving. I am safe.   It is ok to fully be present, complete as me, right here, right now.

Perception is shifting, light is traveling everywhere, see it, know it, let it in.   I breathe out this knowing, watching the love multiply. 

Freedom is not just about destroying walls, it also offers me responsibility for myself, so I can do what feels aligned and true for m,without obligation. Permission to say NO to what no longer serves and YES to what has that winged bird of liberty fluttering in my soul.  Free to be who I truly am. Dance loudly and sing off key. Free to be silent instead of defensively convincing since no words are needed.

‘Let silence take you to the core of life.’    – Rumi.

This quote urges me to freely express the universal nature of my individual being, without needing to do something ‘impressive’.  Or say anything at all. At one with a bird named Freedom, who refuses to be shaped by an assumption of supposed to or a presumption of what has been. Freedom shapes herself from my internal guidance, my soul bird, liberating me from needing to be what I am not.

Light ripples in all directions igniting freedom from cookie cutterdom. Sovereignty descends giving me a supreme sense of peace to express myself and dine on the delight in being me. No corset needed to control the essence that flows through me. No worry required for what others think of me nor fearful disconnect necessary.  I express therefore I am.

I have touched the shape of freedom and it has forever altered me.

What does freedom mean to you?

What is your excuse?

What is your excuse?

We all have them.   Did a dog eat your good intentions? Swallow your passion? Or are the things you say you want just bogus?  

No judgement here, merely an opportunity to get real with yourself.   I have fooled myself so many times, thinking I needed to be something particular, in order to contribute in life. Now I realize, much of what I set myself up for like-  Chasing accolades, desperately needing to be popular – all so I would fit in – is not where my heart is.

Being encouraged to harbor high ideals about our purpose and what it is ‘supposed’ to look like, so we can ‘win’ is a losing game.   That rigid framework of labels and guidelines conditions us to focus on what is wrong with us.   Setting up an unbalanced equation of belief and counter action which has us swinging between wanting to please and needing to impress, to prove our value and meet our assumed requirements.   

We look for a sign that we are doing it right, something that will tell us which way next.   

I meet people in the metaphysical, spiritual woo woo world all the time, who are waiting for a big billboard from God.   ‘Tell me what to do Divine, lead the way. I am yours to command’

In my stubborn painful journey of ‘dying to please’, literally turning to dust with my attempts to do things the ‘way they were supposed to be done’  I have discovered the Divine doesn’t require that kind of self effacing sacrifice, spending hours in a fog, with no clue of what I wanted.  

Just waiting for Source to set my compass.  

While Source stilled till I got the message. Choose.  Discover your desire within.  No need for excuses or a cover up.  BE YOU.’

You are in charge.   The Divine will give you guidance when you ask but first decide.

 We have free will.   The Divine wants our joyful cooperation, our participation and our passion.    Do what feeds your soul, not gains approval.   I kept ignoring the request because that meant I would have to take responsibility and accept the challenge of making my way.  A scary idea.

Which begat the age old question – what if I made the wrong choice? To which the Divine informed me that there is no wrong choices only choices.      Well ok then.  I can do this if  you hold my hand. (lots of loving hand holding has happened on this journey)

We set up impossible deadlines or rush ahead before we are ready, and give up because it is too hard to pause, take slow measured steps or ask for help from others.    

We hesitate because we are not doing what we desire, we are following orders.  After all It is far far better and more enlightning to stay at home and etch joyful pictures in the sand (or fill in the blank with what lights you up), than to do something we think we are supposed to.                      

So I ask you again  – what is your excuse for not doing what you think you are supposed to?  Is it a valid barrier that must be dissolved?  Or is it really a sign saying don’t go here?

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With woo and wonder,  Jen

2018 Numeric Insight

2018 emboldens and brightens, giving us leave to let go of old antagonism, anguish and wounds. When the clock strikes midnight on December 31 of any year, we are moved by the universal energies into a new experience.   

The particular numbers of each year, are full of Wisdom, guiding us through the fog.  Helping us understand how to make the most of the opportunity, to become more aligned to our destiny.   Not to push ourselves to become more of what someone else says we “should” be.  Instead, release old contracts, agreements and behaviours that stifle our potential.    

2017 (2+0+1+7) was a 1+0 universal year, moving us beyond the single digits into creating richer relationships with our world.  

Charting a brand new 9 year course for all of us, and beginning the activation of the Aquarian age.  (begun 11/11/2011) (each constellation lasts about 2160 years)  2017 definitely challenged us to narrow our focus, examining things we had long ignored.   Bringing all kinds of ideas and ideology to the surface.

Awakening immortal energies within us while questioning the projectile of our current legacies.

What world are we populating and carrying forward?

The Aquarian age promises expansion and connection.    Tribal experiences or Dictatorship. Polar opposites of the same idea, either one is possible.   

Which one will we feed?      Either we take a stand for who we are and how we want to live, accepting our divine power, and choosing freedom or we take orders from the ones who take the reigns of power.  Active or passive, we must take responsibility for how our lives unfold.  

2018 begins with much stirring of the light.   We see things we have hidden.  We feel hopeful and aware our choices lead us.     We move from a 1 to a 2 in the cycle. 

As always the numbers guide us.   2+0+1+8 adds up to an 11.   

A master number. Gateway to Glory.

11 demands that we take responsibility for our own actions.  Master our fears and illusions.  Deal with what we blame and name as limitations.  RISK standing on our own two feet connected to Source and Ground.n  11 opens space for us to see more clearly.  Bringing the light into the places we dwell in.

We can fool ourselves but it wont make the world a better place.  Right now, we need to clearly see who we are, with compassion and acceptance.

Fear is an illusion and a prison that silences and shames us.   We can no longer huddle in the dark, refusing to act on our truth because we are scared.  Closing our eyes to what is right in front of us. We must see what lurks, trying to keep us scared and small.   We have to move into the light, let go of fright.   Walk through the doorway that lies beyond staying safe on someone else’s terms.

Possibility and growth awaits to escort us.

Yes.  Fear traps us and limits us.  We don’t need to invest in that kind of limitation.

Instead we must find the connections between our spiritual selves and our human bodies.   Open our hearts.  Stop judging ourselves, or others.  Everyone is Divine.

Get over any sense of not being enough or that someone else is better.  We are all worthy, and doing what we believe is sacred.

Many days I have to remind myself that even though my personality has quirks that are not very spiritual, that’s ok.  Normal.   I am not meant to be enlightened every moment.    However if I can learn to accept my quirks and love them then I can see the light in others, and feel love for them too.

11 adds up to 2(1+1) choices, decisions, boundaries.  Everything is as good as the choice you make around it.  You can beat yourself up.  Or you can give yourself love.   Its ok to do things badly.   Awareness and compassion will help you do better next time.   Decide and act.  Accept and allow.

Only you have the power to change what you think you are experiencing by naming and claiming your experiences differently.    

Choose that.  Choose to know that if you want time to spend on your own activities ,(for example) set a boundary.  Tell people out loud.   This is my boundary.   At 3 -5 on Wednesday I will be working on my own stuff.    Daydreaming.   Whatever.   State it, and activate it

Go do it.  Stick to being disciplined about what you are bringing into form.  Everything takes practice.  We don’t know how to be who we are, we have to learn. We can’t know how to make art until we paint or draw.   We won’t improve anything without consistent application.  Even love and relationships take effort. The planet Saturn(taskmaster) is in Capricorn (our standing in the world/ careers) for the next couple years assisting us to bring our ideas into form.  Making it real..   Who will you be? Here is your opportunity to stretch yourself and find out.  Willingly or unwillingly you will have to make choices and act them out.

2 encourages diplomacy.  Be kind while you pay attentions to the details of your dreams.  Bring your focus and intention from last year into reality by choosing to practice, deciding to speak out, join, attend to details, connecting to people and potential.   

Allowing what has been polarized to move closer to harmony, bridging gaps.

Focus on getting clear on what your really want.  What is your desire beyond the item in the window? What will it give you and why?

Ways to help yourself  move through the year

KINDNESS – Treat yourself as you would like others to treat you.    And then extend that out into the world.  You don’t need to agree with others to be kind.

BOLD – we have passed the point of doing things because the world tells us we are supposed to.  If you are going to stand on your own two feet, you must give credence to your own intuition and desires.

BOUNDARIES – mark the place that demarcate your needs.  That keep you safe.   Own those lines in the sand, give yourself space to live from fullness.

BALANCE everything.  The things you hear, what you see against the bigger picture.  Get out of the habit of dragging everything into opposition.   Leave behind what you don’t need without shaming or blaming it.

Right now, consider what would make you feel capable and strong in life that you want more of.

Help me spread the magic

What does it mean to take an illuminating Journey?  I have birthed these  @Illuminating Journey Cards filled with alchemy and they want and need to be out in the world to spread their magic.

Asking me to beat the drum, open the door so they can be more visible and viable.

I have spent most of my life trying to be independent, doing it all alone.  Never wanting to look like I needed help.  Hardly ever asking or taking help from because it was embarrassing, shameful, uncomfortable.  Just not done.

Now I HAVE to do this.   Open my heart to receive help.  Ask people to help me and let the help come in.

Yes,  I am uncomfortable to admit that I can’t do this alone. I don’t have to do it alone. I don’t have  the reach, the funds or flair to do this alone.   What is even more astonishing is that I don’t want to do this alone.

These cards are part of the community and are helping me to connect to people in a delightful right way.   Creating a new language that must be created in community.   I am excited, scared and feeling awkward all at once.

I am hoping you will join me by pledging the cost of your very own deck or contributing at any level that speaks to you.  Go here to contribute or just gather some Illuminating Journey Cards Juju.

Please help me, by spreading the work and work in your own way.   

I can use all the help I am offered, gladly and gratefully receive whatever is forthcoming.   

Love and Alchemy,


Journey Cards birth!

The Cards are birthed.

4 years ago, an adventure began. When my Akashic Masters first told me I had to bring forgotten wisdom back into the world, I had no idea what that would look like, or how I was going to bring ‘wisdom’ that I didn’t know about into the hands, hearts and minds of waiting beings.

A great mystery yawned wide.   I was very earnest, trying to imagine what my great ‘work’ would look like.  Attempting to study up like a good student.   Finally I gave up trying to think my way into bringing these cards to life, and in 2016 I knew that there was a window of time, for me to get busy, conceive, gestate and birth.

And after 13 months of sinking into the world of visual portals, expanding my creativity, I am so excited to have a complete pack of ©Illuminating Journey Cards in my hands.

Ready to presell.   My little card children, humming and buzzing to spread their wings and fly.

As a creative person all my life, what really struck me, when I was given this mandate, was how many ideas I have had, and how few I have fully brought to life.

Of those, very few forms have had enough love, attention  and delight to glow brightly out in the world.    I did not trust that my work was worthy or that I was worthy to present my work.


These cards fill me with such joy.   They are ready to fly out into the world, and I don’t want to hold them back.  More than that, I intend to engage in helping them to spread their wings.

Its been easy for so many years to make excuses why my creative ideas were not successful.   Mostly because I was afraid to be seen.  As if being seen is a sin or something.

Marketing myself, earning more than just a ‘living wage’  things that have seemed taboo, out of reach, are suddenly much closer.  More possible.   Friendly.     Encouraging.

So I intend to do what I can every day, even if it is only one step deeper, leading these cards to find and liberate their new owners.

If you want to know more or buy a set go over here.

Tell me, if you will, about what ideas you have birthed that you are nurturing and giving a hand to?


Love & Crowns,


December 2016 Numeric Insights

Numerically December 2016 is a double 12 month.

It is also the final month of 2016.  A 9 universal year (2+0+1+6) and a 16 calendar.

1+2=3    The 3 is a number representing the child.   Open in front.  Double half loops.

Innocence.  Curiosity.  Exploration.   A desire of discovery.  Self Expression.  It is the digit of seeking and speaking your message.   In all ways.  Being human means you have a voice.


Voices are layered. Nuanced things.  You can cry, scream, yell, laugh, sing,

Chase butterflies and fall down wells.

12.  12 is a number of teaching and learning.  Precursor to discovery.

You have an experience.  You uncover something new. Then you label it.   You stick a pin in it. Mark it specimen A.     How you bring that discovery into a form that changes you, that is where the 3 meets the 12.

1 is about focus. Action.  A masculine energy of needing to accomplish.

2 is about surrender (or that is what I call it) a need to redress balance, create boundaries, connect the dots.   Make community.  Intuitive and feminine.

1 is the individual.

2 is the collective.

3 is the opportunity.

12 combines the 1,2,3 that creates a step by step focus and result.  Not the end result.  The beginning. We have 3 cycles of 3 that make up all 9 root numbers.   1,2,3 are the first 2 prime numbers.  Father, Mother, Child.    Maiden, Mother, Crone.    Triangle of Potential.

12 is significant, since it represents 3+9  two key numbers that awaken within you your Emotional Response.      3 is JOY.   pure unadulterated bliss of the individual.   You laugh, cry, sigh, emerge. 9 is the connection of the collective.  Humanity as one. Compassion. Universal Love.  Passion. That drive to communicate the fullness of your cells within the larger body of the world.

12 is also a time keeper.  12 months of a year.  12 hours in a day. Day and Night equals 24.  2+4=6  2×3 and the third emotional number of Love.  Family love, romantic love.

12 is our teacher.  Guiding us to use what we have learned, that intuitive awareness of 2 with the focus directive of 1.

You get to choose.  If you will take what you have learned in this 9 year of letting go & endings, to change your mind about what is really going on.   To take back your curiosity and willingness to evolve.   Ultimately 3 is about birthing new thought, new ideas, finding love of self.  9 is about spreading LOVE, living love.  Being in certainty of love.

Enough to DARE.

December is preparing you to go forward.  As a victim or a leader.  With path will you choose?

To focus on your goals, enough to surrender the need to control the outcome and the players, in Joy with the unfolding?

Or hanging on, determined to suffer, find fault and blame the world and others for the pickle you are in?

December is an opportunity to Create, Connect and Collaborate on what you want more of going forward.  Spend time visualizing and declaring what you will focus on going forward.  Find forgiveness, compassion and clarity about what you missed doing or being leading up to now.

We have many influences this month, including big breakthroughs, healing, the need to balance and go it alone.  That 12 influence again.

Mercury goes retrograde in Capricorn (standing in the world) stationing on the 19th at 15 degrees. 1+5= 6.  Magical energy stirs within you.  Choose to be OF SERVICE not in service.

This Solstice/ holiday season, 21 (number of truth, mirroring that 12) your very being is being harmonized, as you cross the shortest day/longest night or vice versa.   Is a time to go deep. Mars (drive) enters Pisces on the 19th (new beginnings) too.   Spiritualizing your Warrior.  Preparing you, and centering you in your truth.   Uranus (breakthroughs) Jupiter (expansion) Saturn (task master) all swirl in a dance to guide you to your purpose.  To bring out your certainty.    In the depth of traveling towards your soul, you find your roots and truth, or you keep hanging on to needing someone else to follow.

Inside of this month comes the opportunity to know your independence and become a willing collaborator in truth or in keeping the lies you have lived by alive.

What will you stand for?  How will you communicate your truth going into 2017?



November is a Powerful Portal Month

Can you believe that 2016 has but 2 months left?

I am in shock yet loving the shifts.

We are still in a 9 year (2+0+1+6)  which is all about stripping bare of the surplus.


Many of us, myself included find it easier to hide behind the shoulds.  Shields of Honor that have littered the battlefields forever.

This 9 year is breaking up the old guard, the honor system of yore.

We don’t have time to waffle in what might have been.  We need to get into the meat of what is, to activate what we want to birth.   A new way of being and seeing.

That is where the true power lies.   Not in the idea that someone is either robbing us of what is ours, or gifting us with their largesse.

It all begins within.  The flame, or candle of the Soul.  Each flame rests with its owner.   You.

You have your own light and reason why.

With this powerful symbolic 11 bringing us into November we are being invited to see the strength in what we are standing for.

What lights us up.

How to begin the journey to soul fullness.  Letting go of how it is ‘supposed’ to be and who is in charge.

Conditioning.  That is a fact of cellular life.  Nature imposes and humans supposes….

We think we know what it all means.  Without lighting the flame. Or listening to the rain.

The veils are thinner than they have been for a long time.  We have the option to leap through the veils.

Yes its bloody hard.  It hurts like hell.  Uncomfortable.  Daunting and yet.

Will that stop your fierceness to be free?

the 11 is doubled this month because the universe has its own calendar.  When you add 1+1 + 9 you get 11.

11 is the visual of standing on your own feet.  Receiving in the space you are standing in,

It is electric and wild.    It can drench your being with the electric light you carry in your genes.  In your vessel of this earth.

Think about the energy you are imbued with, open up to receiving the signals and lightning rods to awake up those signals, you are on fire.  with purpose and truth.

Ready to bring to differences together.  Willing to take action on what grounds  you and connects you to all that is available.

When you do things because you are compelled beyond what is in this for me, you project yourself through the portal of change.

Shifting into your truth that lies beyond the veils.  1+1 =2.   Number of opposites – the great divide or a bridge to walk on.   Connection happens when you want what your opponent wants.  A shared outcome.  You each dont have exactly the same picture nor do you need to, to agree on diplomacy and cooperation.  Without being a doormat or a bully.

You can pretend you can’t see beyond the veil.  Or that the world owes you something because of what you have experienced.  Or that  you have no value so that the world cant count on you.

We are in this together.  You and me.  All of us.  Our ancestors and our children’s children are counting on us to make that leap, through the dark into the light.

Even when we cant see beyond the mud.   When we can barely get the flame lit, when we are drenched in rain up to our eyeballs.  When the people we are facing won’t see reason or another way.

Even then.  We must stand up for love.  We must be shields of love and project love.

We are here to learn how to beam love even in the darkest corners.  without expectation.  without ego.

Just because you and me, we are the candles who illuminate the possibility.   When you are a candle you must light up the space you are in.

It is your light that will lead the way, for the one behind you.    It is your trust that will allow you to create more light.  It is your soul that will guide you, even in the dark.

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men (& women) are afraid of the light.”
— Plato

How do you plan to lose your fear of the light ?