Discovering Energy Sources within

This past weekend I spent learning all about gift markings and fingerprint recognition.

Friday night I had my first ever experience witnessing channeling.

Sunday I sat amongst a small circle of very powerful women, all of us in different places in our journey.  My thinking has been twisted inside out. My head is reeling from intuition, yet there is clarity. Picking a card from the deck this morning I got  “Divine Guidance”.  That was shocking, and yet made perfect sense.  My intuition or “Divine Guidance” is telling me changes are coming. Power is shifting. A Matriarchal society is on the rise.  I am listening. Matriarchal does not mean all women. It means ruling from the feminine.

Message from the Angel Deck

Me, the logical thinker. With my HAL 9000 brain, yes this is a gift marking.

Complex thinking problems are what I thrive on, and herein lies a knotty situation. Learning to open my heart, to listen to what I feel, even though I don’t know.  I don’t know if what I feel is true.  This requires trust.  I feel like I have to let go of what I hold to be true “logic” as a safety net, because there are layers and support I cannot see. If I do not trust, I cannot fly. If I cannot fly, then I cannot find that which I seek.

If I cannot hone in on what I seek, then this mortal life is, but dust.

My life lesson is to plunge into the canyon, Neither hesitate nor look back.  To just, do it. Turns out that I have intuitive gifts.  Along with a life purpose that requires leadership & communicating. Making things happen.  Luckily as part of my journey of discovery, I have met amazing women. Helping me to define the who of me.  I have discovered how to save energy and fuel my promise.

Lines of genius are a gift marking too.  Sounds fancy but translates to the ability to communicate & the compulsion, to share what I know.  I have been wrestling with connecting the dots.  What can I bring? What can I share that ties all my bits together?   I realized today that what I truly know is my journey.    I don’t even know why I am crying as I write this. Is it a relief to let go? Maybe I cry out of fear, fear of looking like a fool.  It doesn’t matter.

What I have learned in this last year is that there is more power in letting go publicly, than in burying truths, than living in the mists of pretense.

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Discovering Energy Sources within — 12 Comments

  1. Jen, your authentic voice and vulnerability in showing us who you are is powerful. I wonder if there is a way to tie your journey into your business, or is the business changing as the journey moves forward. Perhaps that is what this blog is all about. Perhaps you just need another category for personal wonderings? I for one applaud and look forward to watching you soar in your process.

  2. Whoa!!!! Chills and tears from me here too. What is going on? The synchronicity and signs that you and I seem to be getting from all sides conveying similar messages. You listened to and read my vlog – the rise of the matriarch and focus on those who want to write and speak. I am getting serious shivers here as I feel the thrill and the fear of how I’m going to let go and just let my story out, connect the dots – I get it all! I’m in a bit of a daze with it all at times but I’m trying to put one foot in front of the other and just do it so it will all come together. Love this side of your blog – but then another part of the call I talked about was the blurring of life/work – if we are living our passion it all becomes one, there is no separation. It’s not that we are working too hard, it just is our life. Am I even making sense? The recording of Randi Pierce’s call is still on her site I think. If you have time you should listen!
    Louise Edington
    Facing Fears For Freedom
    http://louiseedington.com

    • Louise obviously there are no coincidences. We are traveling an new road, and yes full of unknowables. I love the idea of lines blurring as we stride to meet possibilities. Truly I am blessed to call you friend.

  3. I loved this Jen. I feel such an affinity with everything you write as healing and spirituality forms the backbone of who I am.

    I would urge you to completely embrace this. Right now you may not see how the dots connect between this and your other work but they are very deeply connected as they are both expressions of you.

    Please continue to write on this subject and just give it all free expression. I’d love to see how it all develops.

    Supporting you on this journey.

    Fiona Stolze
    Inspired Art and Living
    http://fionastolze.wordpress.com

    • Dear Fiona, it is no coincidence that we are traveling down this path. It all makes perfect sense. And I agree with you. the dots will connect. In fact they have already. I cant wait to meet my spiritual destiny. So glad I have your support, it means the world to me, in spite of our distance in miles, it feels like you are right here.

  4. Ah, this! The bliss of beginning to discover who one is at the core of being, and the challenge to continue to seek, to face the fear and to still connect with others. Actually the “others” are not separate from one another. There can be no separation in THAT. Now you are speaking my language, dear Jen. Welcome home.

  5. Hi Jen,

    I know that I no longer have to hide and I know I can write openly (finally). I am a rainbow child and throughout my life I thought I was alone. We are going through amazing times because more and more people open up and embrace consciousness. Stay on that path because as you learn more, you will find that logic and the sensual side are not disconnected, they are one (they just seem separate because the things that we were taught -supposedly “normal”- have nothing to do with logic, that’s why we get fooled so many times). I promise, it will all make sense soon.
    Be patient, just be and enjoy the journey.

    Much love, light and laughter to you,
    Franziska

  6. I adore the way you are “connecting the dots”, Jen. I think we are all on our personal journeys of discovering ourselves and our gifts and this theme certainly resonates with our blogger group.

    I can So relate to your closing statement about fear and fear of looking like a fool. I’ve been struggling with similar thoughts that have prevented me from speaking/publishing for a few weeks. Not feeling so much “foolish” but over-thinking the outcome of fully expressing myself. I’m working through it and am inspired by you and other woman who are courageous enough to expose themselves.

    Heidi & Atticus
    “commentary to give you paws…”
    http://www.atticusuncensored.com

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